So, I forgot to weigh myself this morning. I think part of me really doesn’t want to look at the scale because I know I did pretty bad this week. I’m sure I can throw out all kinds of likely excuses why I performed so poorly. But the reality is that I just had a hard time caring. I know…my frame of mind was terrible. Needless to say, I doubt I am going to make it to the 80 pound goal in four months.
What Was My Failing This Week?
Myself. I am responsible for my own poor performance in losing weight. Between my ear infection and my mental state, it was extremely difficult to stay focused last week. But, those are simply more excuses. In reality, I have very few legitimate reasons why I wasn’t able to reach my goals.
I had an exceptionally difficult time staying motivated last week. It was really hard to keep my head in the game. I did suffer through a great deal of pain thanks to the ear infection, but I still could have done better to monitor my food intake. As a result, I overate on Friday and Saturday. This gave me really bad rotten egg burps as well as diarrhea. I’m sure you don’t want to hear about all of that, though.
When you’re in a negative state of mind, it can be difficult to care about anything. I’ve been having some severe issues as of late, for reasons I don’t really want to get into just yet, that have driven my depression into overdrive. Today has been a good day, though.
I think I need to find a better focal point that will center my attention on fitness when I feel this way. I need something that can bring me out of not caring about my health. The last thing I want to do is wallow in self pity to the point where I gain all of my weight back. If you don’t suffer from chronic depression, I can tell you that it’s extremely difficult to pull yourself out of the tailspin.
Why don’t I get on medication? Because I don’t like chemicals that affect the way I think. I’ve never sought solace at the bottom of a bottle nor abused drugs because I needed a pick-me-up. I prefer to face my problems sober, and medication might take that away from me. Getting a handle on my life would be a step in the right direction. I would just rather do it without chemical dependence.
What Are My Goals This Week?
I started today really well. I exercised this morning and have plans to do some weight training later tonight. I’ve been keeping a close eye on my food intake and keeping the snacking down. But, this is just one day. Here are my plans for the rest of the week.
3500 Calorie Burn Per Day
Ok, I am going to try this one again. I am going to focus on burning at least 3500 calories throughout the day according to my Fitbit. I do pretty well until after 3:00 pm. Then it just seems like everything goes straight to hell. So, no more excuses. Burning that many calories requires at least two decent workouts per day. I get my morning routine in well enough, I just need to keep on it in the afternoon.
Perhaps getting a bit of house cleaning in throughout the day can help me get off my ass. There is plenty for me to do around here. Today, I am working on laundry. Tomorrow, I’ll focus on the bathroom and probably the living room. The point is that I need to keep moving if I want to consistently burn that many calories each day.
Stick to Workout Routines
I’ve been slacking when it comes to getting up at 6:00 am and working out. Today, I managed to get in 30 minutes of playing tennis after I got back from dropping the girls off at the bus stop. I need to maintain my Monday, Wednesday, Friday weight training routine as well as morning exercises. This is something I have a problem with. Afternoon laziness.
Perhaps I’ll start recording data for all the Kinect games I have. That should keep me motivated to play and exercise every morning. I wanted to create a list of games for this website anyway.
Recording Everything in MyFitnessPal
Yeah, I was slacking a bit towards the end of the week. I need to get back on the ball when it comes to recording everything and making sure I remain in the green for calorie count. I made a bit of a pig of myself by the end there and paid for it on Sunday. If I focus on keeping my calories in the green, I feel so much better the next day.
I’ve been focusing somewhat on eating healthier, but the Halloween goodies are making it difficult to resist. I know, excuses like these are why people have so many issues losing weight during the last few months of the year. Vigilance will be my weapon to stay the course.
Work On Breaking Personal Records
Personal records give you something to work towards. I was disappointed in myself when I could only do 14 push-ups. That’s OK, though. It just means I need to work harder on strengthen those areas of my body. Maybe I’ll use my cardio time in the mornings to focus on setting those new records for myself.
I like how Exercise.com shows you where you stand versus everyone else on the site. For push-ups, I am currently ranked #3904 for max repetitions. I’m not even hitting the site average when it comes to number of push-ups per set. That’s what I’ll work on: trying to achieve at least an average rating.
So Much To Do, So Little Time
I am getting close to the half-way mark in my little challenge. Various excuses keep me hovering at the same weight. However, I have a feeling that I’ll wind up turning up the heat in the last half. I’m always better on the back nine. I just need to keep my daily focus regardless of how I feel.
Although I don’t think I am doing all that good after five weeks, I am still getting flattery from those who know me. People are pointing out how good I look and that a lot of my weight has been turning into muscle mass. Even if that’s true, I still don’t know if I can be in optimal shape by the end of the year. You never know, though.