So, I’m trying to see if I can get to my goal weight by the end of the year. My friend, Chris Desatoff, and I are trying to commit to ending the year lighter than starting it. And personally, I am not doing good at all. I even gained a bit.
In reality, it’s the same set of problems I’ve had throughout the last several years…a lack of passion, motivation, and willingness to accept accountability for myself.
Professionally, my mindset is sharp. Things are moving in awesome directions. But as for my health, not so much.
Why I Gained 0.6 Pounds Over 14 Days
If you follow along with this blog, the following list is pretty much a given. It’s the same old shit just a different day. And I get incredibly frustrated with myself, especially given the man I used to be.
I want some of that person back. But, I don’t know where the hell he is.
I still have a problem with late-night snacking. After work, I usually sit at my desk and binge watch something on Netflix or a bit of YouTube. While I’m sitting there, I think to myself, “I need some munchies.”
When I really don’t.
The other night I caught myself trying to force chocolate in my face even though I had no interest in eating. It’s a terrible habit that I would love to kick. Sometimes, I don’t even think and just eat.
It’s like a subconscious need that I’m not always aware of.
Not Enough Sleep
Speaking of late-night issues, I still battle a constant problem with not getting enough sleep. This is a mixture between having a frozen brick for a bed and staying up later than I should.
On days when I actually get more than six hours of sleep, I tend to do very well…both professionally and physically.
Unfortunately, those days are far too infrequent. And when I’m fighting fatigue, I’m more likely to snack and eat. This plays into why I’ve gained weight quite nicely, actually.
At 9:30 pm, I should drink some Sleepytime tea. I know it works very well for me, and I have, like, 5 boxes of the stuff in the kitchen.
Ignoring My Alarms
I have alarms set to get myself up and away from the desk throughout the day. Unfortunately, those alarms go off at inopportune times. I’m usually busy working when they go off, but isn’t that the point?
Today, I’ll try to adhere to them as much as possible. However, I have to drive across Colorado today to get my girls. So, I don’t think I’ll be able to do the 3:45 alarm as I’ll be half-way to Nebraska by then.
Still, I really need to start paying more attention to those alarms and why I set them in the first place.
Lack of Motivation
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve got oodles of motivation…just not enough for losing weight. My blogs are doing great at the moment, my clients are happy, and I’m doing awesome from a writer’s perspective.
But I’m definitely not putting in enough effort for exercise, which is why I actually gained a bit instead of burning the fat off.
Perhaps if I get into the habit of getting up from the alarms, I’ll have more motivation to keep going. But that’s the rub, isn’t it?
Getting that motivation in the first place is going to take maximum effort.
I’m not always lazy. There are times when I feel incredible and ready to take on the day. Unfortunately, I wind up getting easily sidetracked with a menagerie of stuff. Especially during this time of year.
Between work, the effort in the blogs, setting up YouTube videos, the collab I’m getting ready to do with another YouTuber, and a ton of other things, I simply forget I was going to exercise a lot of the time.
Which is kind of good, in a way. At least I’m not sitting idle and wallowing in my own depression – something I used to do quite a bit several years ago. The distractions nowadays are for a good and productive purpose.
At Least the Depression is Subsided
I’ve come a long way over the past few years. In the past, I would be battling depression on some extreme levels. But recently, it’s been a long time since I’ve had a down day.
Being bipolar, the extremes are quite noticeable. Lately, though, it’s been a long run of feeling pretty good.
Maybe I’ve just been too busy to notice. But, I like where I am headed from a mental point of view. Now, I just need to mix in the health and fitness stuff.
On a side note, though, I do plan on fixing this blog up in 2021. The goal is to triple its monthly traffic by December, much like what I do for clients. So, perhaps that’ll add a bit to the motivation, at least for next year.
In the meantime, I suppose I’ll just keep trying to get back on track with the fitness and not worry too much about what I’ve gained. Instead, I’ll focus more on what I’ve lost and have kept off.
In reality, I’ve lost 80+ pounds and have kept it off for several years – despite depression, losing family members, and a slew of other stressful situations.
Can I Fix These Issues in 4 Weeks?
Yeah, 28 days really isn’t a lot of time to turn myself into a model for a firefighter calendar. But, it’s still plenty of time to lose enough to be the smallest I’ve been in two decades. I just need to really put in the effort.
With the clock running down, what play do I run?